All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

lwb,
I put lots of Christmas lights in the house. MyH says "its very home-y" several times and watching lights for a few moments. He really want to put the tree and decoration with kids and me. I thought its funny too.

I will remember 'privates'... thats really good one.




I saw him briefly when I gave our car to him(we only have one car and it his turn) He gave me a lollypop saying "glad you are here" I gave a smile and said thank you, very simple.

After small talk about how things going, he started to complain how hard for him to write lots of graduate school applications between study for class and GRE. After I validate his feeling like, "yea, i understand.. you are really busy these days and it is lots of things going on..." (but I know he has time for drinking at bars and going to gym everyday)

He said "I wish I have someone who can sit with me and help me"

Obvious...

I just didn't reply to it then and we started different topic. At last when he is leaving, I said to him "I can help you.." He did not say anything at all for a while and said " thought you wouldn't"


I really didn't know how to approach when he is asking for indirect/direct help and how much I should help him. Past 8 years, I am doing all these kind of work.. apply for financial aid, tax stuff, pay bills, sign up for classes, getting information on internet. I want him to understand that the consequences of breaking up with me is not to receive much helps in these things.. I am stuck.. but just this.

Still, I am Ms. positive today and ready to clean my house and give myself a facial massage.