Ok, sorry it took so long to post, but I just had to pick my jaw up off the ground because Heim said I was right! Haha
Yes, I think now as I have been writing this out to you, I pick it up as a feeling that you haven't forgiven and project that disliking of yourself, chip on the shoulder thing into your words...which is understandable.
But I remember being this way too, and I did not come across to other people as being happy, it was like I had a big chip on my shoulder and people could see that...even when I thought I was being ok. Hindsight, I can really see how negative I was! I projected indifference and utter displeasure to all areas of my life, my job, the people I worked with, and I kept projecting like I was Vicki Victim. But honestly I never realized I was being that way.
I remember what a shocker that was to have my C point that out to me. I thought 'what?!!!'. I think I can feel it from you because I have been there and it's a very hard thing to see in oneself. Thanks for being able to view a different perspective, I know that sometimes is easier than it sounds.
PCwBH, you da man!
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
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