What a good year this has been.....

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Great to hear from you, NikB!

Ya know, I'm not sorry I have to be dealing with this stuff. It's tough at times, but I really feel it's all happening the way it's supposed to. I'm moving on up.

Glad you took out the extra $100 cash.. that made me smile. Should've taken it all!! (ok so maybe not really.. but that made me smile too).

Hehe, yeah, should've taken it all!! It's funny to think of, but don't really wish I had.

Yes, that police report was sad. I didn't cry over it or let it get me down, but it affected me some. I'm just choosing to take the positives out of it all. It reminded me that he was trying to blame our past R problems for his current anger right after that incident (it's never his fault), when we'd talked on the phone after he'd been in jail. It's a little strange for me not to feel hopeful that the group and individual C that he's apparently in will do anything for him. I'm obviously no longer believing he will ever take responsibility for himself and truly change for the better. I guess I'm really over him. I have let go. I also remember that I was doing a good job at not taking his actions or attitude personally before he left, which is nice. I didn't make it possible to be his victim like he might've been looking for then, though I definitely felt overly hurt after he did leave. I'm so thankful for being as strong as I was. Part of me feels a little sad for the OW, but I don't feel bad for her... just a bit sorry for her I guess. Glad I'm not her. All I can do is take care of me, and I think I'm doing a good job with that. It's nice to not be hurting over this stuff. Really nice.

It's strange but almost good to see you excited about moving to the D forum. Was it Julie who talked about the "class of 07" "class of 08" thing?? It's like this camraderie with everyone who suffered (and triumphed) with you. So painful but yet such connections too.

Yeah, it's sorta strange to me too but it just seems to be right for me now. I don't recall the "class of" thing, but my memory isn't good. The feeling of community is certainly nice here. It's something I wasn't giving myself before. It's one of the things that is attractive to me while I consider going back to college. Yesterday I went to an academic fair at the college I'm considering going to and immediately met some really nice people. It's set up so you can really get to know the students and faculty you're studying with over each quarter or two through the use of smaller focused groups.

I'll post more in a minute.

Thanks for stopping by, NikB!!!

((((((((NikB)))))))

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