Sometimes yes, sometimes no. It is almost always cordial though when she does. I am headinfg back to town for d school musical Monday night andf I was just there for Tgiving.
I am not trying to be dark, but definitely more gray than I have been. Usually the last kid I talk to (i talk to them twice per day) says here's mommy and we talk for a minute. I have been saying more and more lately that I will just talk to mommy later, though.
Am fighting the demon in my head that says if you don't talk to her she will just think you are being rude... but I am trying to build an opportunity to maybe miss me.
Yeah - I'm gonna leave it alone. Sometimes I picture her face when a text from me arrives -- it looks like she's eating a lemon. Then I try to picture her looking at her phone and wondering why I haven't bothered her... Same face? Who knows, maybe.
Maybe I could text her that i love her, miss her and she is making a huge mistake. Nah, that would be the old me.
Kids just made the after school call to me. I am trying not to be happy beacuse I know it is wrong -- but w was in a bad mood. Yelling at the kids, very short with me.
I know it is wrong because I do want her to be happy and I understand how stressful it is for her to be there with the three of them by herself. But then again, this is exactly the life she says she wants.
