Got ya there.. this was the first Thanksgiving in 5 years I wasn't at the in-laws. Same with Xmas. Can't stand the jewelry commercials.. can't stand the Xmas "family" movies. Every thing I see now has a jaded "divorced" view.
My C called it the round of "firsts". Get through these, and hopefully things get better.
How is your friend and family sitch.. last I posted, they weren't able to come around. Has that changed? This time is VERY important for that.
Maybe use your "shell breaking" to make some new friends you can share the holidays with.
