she just told me that she is with someone elseHELP

[mwel]

mwel... do the AD's. This will help. You can always get off of them when you are further down the road. That's what I did.

I really have been thinking of them but right now I do not think I can afford to go to the Dr's, my deductable is really high. But maybe I need to check it out anyways..

Keep up on the 180's.

Yes I will, I keep trying and I think that she will come back once she see's the new me, but now I have to get that thought out of my mind. Need to focus on me.

I hate to say this, but you've seen what happens when you chase and pursue.. time to go back the other way.
Especially now.. now that the OM is out in the open, you need to pull WAAAAY back.

Yes I know. I will just have to leave her alone, stop calling, texting, and emailing. I need to get in my head that it's time for me to have fun and aging being happy. I am dropping off the face of the earth at least towards her.

I apologize for not being closer to your sitch, but it sounds like the Holidays got you. They are over for now.. focus on yourself.

No need to apologize, yes the holidays did really get to me because of her mom and sister. Plus for the past 4 years, I would always be with them for thanksgiving and this year I wasnt. Yes, thanksgiving is over but Christmas is right around the corner, which will suck also. I need to try to focus on me now...