Ouch! Thought I was so much stronger!

[LL44]

Ok, that's just horrible. I am so sorry. I don't blame you for being down. HUGS

[Hurtin4certain]

Ok... so good news and bad news.

Good news... I finally slept the entire night.

Bad news.... I dreamed about W and I being back together. I woke up happy only to realize that I was alone and that everything that happened in my dreams was just that, a dream.

:-(

[Larrynarry]

I understand about your D. When D5 is here.. all she wants is for me to sit next to her. She gets very emotional. I'm worried about her as she keeps saying over and over "I don't want you to marry another woman." It makes me wonder what W and OM are saying/doing when they are around. Idiots.

It's got to be hard on your D.. considering you guys were friendly and this. Maybe you can send her some flowers at school? Not sure what school policy is.

Would probably make her feel very special!!

[Hurtin4certain]

Jar,

Good idea. I think I might do that! Also, now that she is reading, I figured I might mail her a letter, Im sure she would love that.

Thanks

[Hurtin4certain]

OK...so we're still dark. How long does it take a WAW to initiate contact after the revelation of OM?

This just really surprises me that she doesnt even send me an IM just to say hey. She was really talkative right up until OM came along, as soon as I found out, all contact ceased. Its now been almost 2 weeks of NC.

Do I continue on with being dark?

[Larrynarry]

Yep.. stay the course. It sucks.. I know, but stay the course.

I guess another question I have.. you seem very anxious to talk to her.. what do you want to talk about?

She's probably sorting things through her head. Trust me.. with D crying and all last night, she's wrapped in a heavy guilt blanket right now.

Think of it from her perspective.. all this happened in a flurry. The emotions/consequences from all of it may be hitting her now. Especially if he's out of town.

Keep it up.. you are doing great. Did you send something to your D?

[Hurtin4certain]

Im not looking to have any kind of R talk, I just want her to be able to contact me so I can show her Im moving on (lol if that makes sense). I feel like how can she see notice changes in me if she never sees or talks to me?

Im going to write my D a letter... it will be her 1st piece of mail so Im sure she'll feel all grown ha! Maybe I'll include some stickers or something like that to make it fun.

Thanks Jar, I truly appreciate your advice.

[Larrynarry]

Not to rain on the parade, but what's the chance W will intercept the mail? Just looking at all the angles.. that's why I suggested sending it to school. Doesn't have to go through mom and her prying eyes.

I can understand what you are saying. Take advantage of the times you do see and interact. Like swapping D. When you show up to pick up or drop off... be dressed to the nines.. remember.. You are the best thing since sliced bread. (what was the best thing before sliced bread?)

You have to realize.. by not contacting her, you are showing her a change as well. You don't need her. Your life will be just as complete without her.

That's a big message that can't be made with words... only actions.

[Hurtin4certain]

Weird... W finally contacted me via IM and said "Are you there?"

I responded 2 minutes later "Hey, yeah just got back"

She didnt respond for 20 minutes and then logged off of IM.

Is she trying to play with my head?

[Hurtin4certain]

Im hoping my lack of chasing her is starting to make her think. I know I need to stop obsessing, easier said than done.

H4C