not a peep

[Trixi]

When I say "plans", I mean WAY more globally than just the holidays. He wants me to plan my life how I want because I "shouldn't count on him".

I looked at more houses yesterday. YUCK. I have two more I want to check out today. There is one house that has my attention, but I am not thrilled with the price or surrounding neighborhood.

I just started reading Eat, Pray, Love and while I am not thrilled that she left her husband, I do appreciate her descriptions of being ALONE. Not "alone" in the good sense, but lonely/alone. Late at night when I am in bed and feeling ALONE, I (naturally) feel like I am the ONLY one in the universe that is feeling that way.

H has made no contact with me since he left Tuesday afternoon. Which is fine because I just don't know what I would say at this point. I am not really prepared to do a full-blown Plan B letter (ala MB website), however, I am not going to let things continue as they have. Unfortunately, probably too little too late. I have squandered my leverage. oh well.

Oh-re: Sonoma- still not sure if I can go-we are still hashing out final details to see if this deal will stay together. If it doesn't stay together, then I am going to be showing homes every weekend until we find another one.