We went into this thing in IC yesterday. Very hard session. I am staying home today to process it all (and get things ready for tomorrow). I also started to read Women Who Love Too Much. Strange thing is, these outward symptoms didn't appear in me until after I was abandoned/betrayed. Now, the trick is to know, deep within, that all those feelings of worth and confidence were inside of me all along--they really weren't dependent on him. All that I am, all of my actions and accomplishments, have been mine alone. I am taking a hard look at myself. I see that I was always a people-pleaser, used to looking for and getting outside validation. That is another difficulty with H--I am not used to someone being so harsh and downright nasty with me. I keep giving away my power. This Fri will be a major test of that, and being able to keep the emotonality out of it.
