After 7 hours of mind numbing mediation, I am officially divorced and I officially changed my name back to my maiden name.

It was freakin' exhausting and frustrating and in the end I got 55% of the marital estate--less than what I wanted but it will be okay. This stupid state sucks for LBS's (no such thing as alimony here), but it could have been worse if we had to go to trial.

I will get child support until the kids are 18 and 6 months hence forth of "spousal maintenance" which will help me get my career more firmly moving forward.

I have not shed a single tear all day. In fact, I'm kinda elated, can you believe it? It's done...Ah, relief!

I don't want to hate Mitch and I really want to move forward emotionally from all this. I hope having this all behind us now will help him be more relaxed with me which will help us have a better working relationship and that will help us be better parents to our amazing children.

God I love those kids!!!!

I'm going out of town with my mom tomorrow for a day and a half and I should be getting some shut eye but I'm suddenly full of a second wind and can't relax.

I'm divorced...I can hardly believe it. It's almost 2 years to the day since he walked out on us. Life is Crazy!

Okay folks, the Nyquil's kicking in...Love yizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

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