Maybe not too complicated to understand

[Michael Mc C]

First of all, I've changed my screen name here. No sense "hiding". Hello everyone, my name's Michael and my wife wants a divorce...

Of course with all the information I've posted here, plus the change of my name, she'll know exactly which posts are mine.

Wait. She'd have to be concerned about our marriage, I imagine, if she was on this site, so I guess I'm safe...

Actually, most of the day has been rough on me LWB. Barely any sleep just going over things in my mind. Nothing painful, just replaying the past couple of days looking from an objective view. It was actually kind of affirming for me. I haven't done a bang up job as a "by the book" DB'er but I have put up with an awful lot, I have learned so much about me and relationships and I have endured a lot pain in an attempt to preserve my family - I feel damn good about myself right now.

Since I didn't get any sleep though, I started the morning off thinking about the kids and how this will affect them. That ruined my day. Luckily on Wednesdays I go to a client site so I was not in the house with her all day.

On my way home, for some unknown reason, I became upbeat. By the time I got home I was feeling great. Could be sleep deprivation of course but I'm going to call it confidence!

I am not done with this marriage. Nothing has happened yet that I would consider unforgivable. I married my wife in order to love her and support her for the rest of our lives. As long as there is a chance she can be my wife, I will not turn from her or push her out.

With that said, however, I know myself and I know what I can tolerate. There is a line that if crossed will be hard to forgive. I've never had to deal with that before (PA) so I don't know if I can accept her as my wife if such a thing happens.

I pray that it does not but all signs are pointing that way. Her loss. If it does happen, she is choosing a low-quality, no-ball-having man when in fact she could have a top-quality, relationship-savvy guy like me, weighing 30 pounds less than I used to and living a positive life.

So, to answer your question LWB, I am respectfully cocky and loving it!