Trying to Cope, but It's Too Hard

[WAS32]

I'm new to the divorce busting too. I really can relate to the pain you describe. My h moved out 3 months ago but wanted to work on our marriage. So we have been spending time together and I feel I have been trying to work on things that bothered him about our marriage. We even took a trip to Cuba. The whole time we were there he was loving and sweet. We held hands went for romantic walks on the beach. We did all those things I thought you would do when you are trying to make things better. But we get home from our trip 2 days ago and I get an email from him that I've been his best friend for 12 years and he will always have feelings for me but this marriage isn't working. He wants it on hold indefinately. What the heck does that mean? We have kids and I know this is hurting them. I don't know what to do for myself let alone help my kids through this. I can't stop crying, I can't eat and I can't sleepeven with sleeping pills. Does this get better?