Although there was a time when I did, as of now I don't necessarily fear a divorce. I would prefer if it didn't happen. And she knows this and she senses me slipping away. She knows that she will need to act fairly quickly if she wants to keep me around.
Don't misinterpret me, though. I am not being manipulative. It's just my defense mechanism to emotionally protect myself (she knows this, as I have told her as much). The bottom line here is that if I can't control it, I am not going to waste any energy worrying about it.
I agree completely that she is hurt and angry, and she is lashing out at me. However... she is absolutely convinced that I sent the email. I gotta tell ya, if I were in her shoes, I wouldn't believe me either. There is a piece of info in the email that very few people know. I need to just hold my head high and continue to do the right thing.
Another piece of the puzzle here is that she is embarrassed that she allowed this snake to seduce her. I am sure of that. She found out this week how big a worm he really is. I almost feel bad for her. Almost.
She is refusing to answer the phone when I call... Not calling to speak to her - calling to talk to the kids....
