donna, here is my fear, you are using the new man. I know you are calling him mr right now, and think you have it under control, but you are still using him for that high...the endorphin rush...that validation. all of that needs to come from within, not from someone else. he's a substitution for your h, even if you aren't taking him as seriously.
kind of like an addict that switches from alcohol to marijuana or some other drug...it isn't their drug of choice, so they figure they are doing better, but honestly they are still just chasing a high. its the same thing.
I know its hard to find the strength from within. trust me, I understand that. Its sooo much easier to get the validation from someone else. but in the end, its not healthy.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
