WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..

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SingleAgain,

I truly appreciate your opinion. I'm very wary about what you are saying. Old C was saying i'm in mostly in denial about my prior drinking and damage it has caused, not an imminent D with W.

If the timing of all this wasn't so sh***, I would call her bluff in a heartbeat. If she leaves and I have no transportation to work, I'm screwed. I have been diligently searching for a ride in case that happens.

I do think she is up to more than she is admitting, I'm not really sure what is going on in her head but I do know it isn't pretty. I just have to ride this coaster for awhile, pay attention to things and be calm, see if any new information is revealed. She has also said some things over the past few weeks that suggest that maybe she does just need a break from me to cool off. She has said to me several times that if she was hell bent on D then she would've filed already. She wants to see if she misses me when I'm gone for a period. Sometimes she says she wants to date, sometimes she says she has no interest in dating anyone at all. Her opinions change with her mood. Like before, she said she is in a holding pattern to see what/how I do and what/how she feels about our R after a few months.

Anyhow, I am waiting for new C to analyze the situation, me keeping a watchful eye and open ear before making any more decisions on this and am just going to stay as far away from any conversation about R with W until then.

Her father IS in hospital, just had lung cancer surgery as well, so she is really under alot of stress lately.