Thanks for the feedback RCR. I've looked back thru some of your archived threads and found the article "what do progigal spouses think about". It helped to read it. I've pasted it into my journal so I can read it now and then.

I just have to have faith that it WILL play out and not get focused on the time. It's just hard with an almost 3 yr old and a newborn to not look at them want their father back for them (I know he will be changed...). I want them to know the person he can be. He is here often, but it is obviously not 'him'.

I can not explain how strong the feeling is within me that he will get thru this and there will be a chance for us and our M. I just feel like I know it's true...not just wish or hope, I KNOW. I guess that's why I get hung up on the timelines because it's not a matter of IF, but a matter of WHEN. As you said RCR...in God's time.

Well the good news the kids certainly keep me busy! The time it will take is as much meant for my therapy as it is for his and I do feel myself getting stronger and more independant every day.
J~