recovery??

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi all,
It's been a long time. I have been very busy. Is that GAL? I have been working on my cases and getting a new business going. Yes, time consuming which I really need.

Anyway, the last I posted it was about H's and the OW's emails. Since then I went dark. Then he called, we spoke. He invited me to Vegas for the weekend prior to Thanksgiving. I went. We had a wonderful time. He came home for the Thanksgiving weekend, we had a great weekend. Then he left this past Sunday to return, get his stuff, explain to his parents and is returning for good on Friday.

We have had some talks, good ones I think. He wants to repair our M. The OW he says is completely out of his life. I tend to believe him this time as she went ballistic and sent me some pretty ugly emails again. I canceled that account as I don't want to hear from her. H has made some positive changes and I believe is sticking to them. He understands why I might be skeptical this time.

I have stopped saying ILY to him as when he says it back I feel uncomfortable and not sure how he means it. When we had it out that last time he said he ILYAAF but INILWY. So I would rather not hear it until he initiates it and means it. He also agreed that counseling would be good for us. That's good bc we need it.

All these things are good but I have alot of anxiety. I'm worried about alot and not sure about him. I mean, I do love him and want our M but not sure how sincere he is and I know it's going to take time to rebuild our R and the trust that has been broken.

Anyway, just wanted to update. Hope everyone is ok.