WAH-MLCer took child and I to dinner last night and I could see how hard it was for him to be out to dinner as a family, rather than as a single person socializing, drinking, etc.
Since his reduction in alcohol, and I say reduction due to the fact he is drinking a little wine and beer again, I think he is also not taking his ADD pills.
We made it home and he went off to the bar(supposedly) for a couple of hours, returning about 10pm. I guess it was good that he removed himself from the environment that he couldn't handle, rather than staying and helping me/child and possibly loosing his temper.
This is one heck of a RC ride....
Yesterday, I was seriously planning to get off, today, I feel that I am still fighting for a family and this friend/OW who is still somewhere in the picture is of no importance. She doesn't have the history w/my H or the child. I am in the right, this is our family that I am fighting for.
WAH-MLCer is better than where he was last year with child, even though he is far from being a good father/spouse rather than just doing the basics. I still have that little glimmer of hope that is carring me through today.
Have determined that I will make a hard choice/decision at the beging of the new year. Until then, I will evaluate day to day.
MariS
"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"
Become the change you want to see.....
Me - 37 WAH - 35 child - 2yrs Separated - August '06 Married - 10yrs, Together 18 Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08
