I'm in a strange place. I've been talking with a seeing a man who has gone through the same type of betrayal (and his ultimate D) as I have gone through. He is very understanding and supportive. He may not end up being Mr. Right (I have no notion or expectation for that--just living day-by-day), but he is Mr. Right Now. I feel much better in knowing him, getting to know him.
I feel like this is a preference, not a need. But my mind is quieter. There is only a very small part of me that would even consider a reconcilliation with my H at this point. But then I face the reality of where he is, how he has been behaving and what he has been saying.
The phone company called me to "approve the additional line on the cell acct." He has added her to his plan; I told them he no longer lives at this number and gave them his new contact info. He had me removed and separated onto my own acct In Oct. She goes to his apt for a few hours every night after she finishes work. He doesn't call or email accept for business/kids. He shows no signs of backing off of the D proceedings.
I think that he is just gone, moved on and not looking back. And I am still sad about that a bit; resigned, but it is just a shame. Other than moving on with my life, I don't see much else that I can do to affect the sitch. I plan on going in on Fri prepared with what I want/need from a D with all of the supporting documentation. I would like to just tell him that, while I am sad that we ended up here, I do very much want him to be happy and I won't stand in the way of that.
