I change my mind about that everyday. Today I think that I am ready to give up now. Last night and this morning sucked! I know that she was communicating with OM and that this disturberd her so she said some things that were very hurtful to me.
In addition, I was suppose to go over there last night to "play house" and she was in such a bad mood that it just made the night suck so I wanted to go back to where I am staying with my boys and another pseudo-fight ensued.
This morning she told me how depressed she was about her life and all the pain that she is in from me, her parents, her life. She told me that she will never be able to let go of the pain that I caused and again that she is not in love with me.
I know that these are just words and they have been said before and that if I get back to DB'ing that we might open the door a little further but my stress level is maxxed out. We have our first MC tomorrow, which she wants to be DC and I have my DB coaching tomorrow night and I am really anxious about all of it.
The MC could probably go one of two ways, but reality tells me that it will go south in a hurry.
I miss my wife so much today!
Me: 33 jacka** whom lied, stole, cheated, and basically treated DW like crap for years DW: 29 kind soul who gave too much to me over the relationship
S7 S4
M: 7yrs Bomb: 10/19 Seperated: 10/24
The worst reconciliation is better than the best divorce
