I do love my family and I love my wife, even though she has become an ALIEN.
I feel like this is outta my league, too.
Four kids. And they are all gorgeous, beautiful children. All so young and innocent and sweet. !!!
(shakes head)
She didn't have the decency to call me of course, to let me know the papers were coming. I phoned her when I heard from my attorney. When I spoke to her, she commented that I am a good person, that she sees the positive in me, I'm a good father. She just doesn't love me any more and she can't try.
It was when I asked her to consider counseling rather than filing that the accusations came out. Then someone the phone got disconnected. Hmmmm...
I guess I just strap in for one more run of the rollercoaster, for now.
If she still sees some positive in me (good father, good person), maybe that is the seed of something that will grow later. More patience.
Sometimes I think I am lying to myself. My friends think I am pitiful putting up with all of this. I think maybe she sees that too, and how could she ever reconcile with someone so pitiful. (But then maybe I think too much!)
We'll see where the D process goes. I never thought I would ever be in this position. Never. When I got married I made a commitment. A happy but solemn commitment. Good times and bad.
I guess I will just get a life, figure out how to have fun, get a new place to live, watch in dismay as my marriage is dismantled, and see where life takes me.
For her part, she will need to GAJ (Get a Job) because the divorce will put much less money in her pocket than she has now.
This sure is shaping up to be a Merry Christmas !!
M 43 S14 S13 D11 D7 Divorce final: Jan 2009 Making it up as I go....
