Reading your posts, it reminds me so much of how my H used to act when I still lived in our house and he would drop by, call, etc. It's so hard, because they've been so mean to us and said terrible things, they've had A's, they left, etc. but then they come by and take the garbage out, or pick up dessert, or whatever, and you're silently wondering why, if they said they don't want to be with us. I think you sound totally together considering. Like my H, yours sounds really depressed and he's very sorry for what he did. He just doesn't know what to do. I don't have any advice; you are already doing all you can. Just keep doing that; it seems to be working really well for you because you sound very calm and together.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
