Just to clarify, my W isn't acting childish. It's the childish view of love -- I just don't feel that way, I can't talk to you -- that drives me bonkers when I think about it. The sad thing is, my W has grown into the woman I always thought she could/would be -- sexy, confident, smart, funny. Thing is, she no longer wants me. The thing is, she's angry with me, deep down, but won't tell me why or let it go. She's also said that she's seen me making changes for the better and is seeing how this is hurting our girls and still won't give it a go. Tremendously frustrating, like everyone else. All that said, unless I'm posting, I generally don't think about her or what she's doing.
These aren't new emotions for me, but it does feel good to type them out now and again.
On a mini-GAL note, have finally decided what I'm going to get for my loverly plasma, 42 inch, HD TV to sit upon -- and be flanked by. The IKEA Billy bookcases and the Benno TV stand. Would prefer something a little higher-end, but it'll look good and I'll be able to reuse the bookcases down the road whenever I can afford to live in a house again. Also, finally got pictures and whatnot on the wall AND there was a Michael's custom framing coupon in the paper (finally) for a few more things I'd like to get framed. Starting to feel like home. And, all of the fish are still alive and the plants are growing (live plants, plastic aquarium plants look like shyte and are for wussies ).
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
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