Well, I initiated all the physical contact. Asked him if it was okay as I went. Total 180 for me. I've let him initiate everything the last year or so. He even told me the hugs were nice this morning.
To be honest, all I was really thinking about was that I seriously needed to get laid. Figured it was better than a random guy in the bar...lol... Anyway, figured if I didn't try, I wouldn't get any.
Her husband is sniffing around. I keep thinking he's going to figure it out. I also wonder how much of what she's telling xh is a lie...you know, poor poor controlled me, pity me. Maybe I should mention it to xh... It's so tempting to send her husband a message on MySpace. (I don't have an account. Hate the thing.) Don't think I will, tho.
Well, on some level, he's choosing to do this. Don't know why, though. He's not dumb about affairs. Even he saw this coming at first. We chatted about it. Got the old "it just happened" yesterday. lol He's still following the script...
Yup, tried the "I like you as you are" thing. Didn't help.
Only talked to him a little today. I was having lots of anxiety, so I called him. This works well...I just said, "Having lots of anxiety, still, after this weekend." He just listened. That was it. Quick phone call.
I keep thinking we're getting closer to the real issue, whatever it is, the more he and I talk.
Figured it was better than a random guy in the bar...lol... Anyway, figured if I didn't try, I wouldn't get any.
