IC, Thank you for taking the time to delve into the psyche of Journey...it's a pretty weird, scary place! It was helpful to read what I wrote...it sounds like I had made peace with my desire for healthy drama, but I haven't had the guts, or whatever it takes, to act on it. On the trip, instead of pulling out fun and tease from the bag of tricks, I came up with hurt and anger. Not exactly healthy drama, but it was drama nonetheless, and it produced the desired results, when my H had enough of the nonsense, and blanked my blank! I am afraid to go the "normal" assertive route that Miss IC can take with you ( as if you guys are normal, lol) because of all the past sexual damage...my rejection of my H for many yrs, his loss of interest in me and the affair. It's one big head trip.
Now, Israel is not supposed to be a rowdy, decadent trip in the least...I am picturing myself getting into a more spiritual, devoted state of being, which of course will probably raise my libido in some wacky way.
Overall, H and I are making progress but it is sloooowwww going. IOW, I will probably be on this board to cycle through a few more Journey names.
