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To the law firm of P & P,


Well, I won't quit my day job just yet... ;\) I was just concerned that you haven't allowed yourself to come out of that and let go.

Yeah, I understand your befuddlement, truly. I also completely understand the disappointment.

I know what you mean about the trust issue, I THOUGHT I was back to trusting my husband for the last two years about 3 cycles ago of this continuing circle. But he was never on the same page. Even though things for me, at the moment, seem better than they have been in the past, I too know its going to make me wary of his love again. But that is a chance I am willing to take AGAIN.

Even if this was a new person, I would be wary but would take the chance. In the name of loving someone, because having that love back at you is tremendous. I have seen how much this trust in loving issue has hurt my H(NOW, wish I'd seen it awhile ago), so I am very aware of the pain you are feeling in this area.

From a W point of view, she can still sense that you are hurt by this and see it in your actions and voice, even if you think you are not showing it. I know for me, seeing that empty hole in his soul and the darkness in his eyes shattered my little brain and heart. I didn't know what to do to bring it back...

If it is hard to discuss with her, because you are gunshy about her reactions or yours, could you write her a letter? Telling her the things that you said in your last post? I would have loved for my H to tell me those things, so that I could really get what he was feeling.


Me:49 H:47
S: 16
T:27 M:25
My EA: 2001
His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013
Separated, but H still in house

Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.