Now if I could just spin for about an hour and then get down to business, I would be making progress....
You are making progress. Don't doubt yourself. You getting better all the time and you have come a long way from where you were 5 months ago.
I hope you are wrong about your D's relationship with their father. Your girls are at a time in their lives when they really need they dad...it is too bad he can't see that...yet!...there is always hope.