I am fading from the boards, slowly but surely. I find that being away from them is healthy for me and I don't feel like I have a whole lot of useful advice to offer so I think it is natural that I am detaching from the bb.
My son turned 13 last week and the whole family was here for the party. We had it at a wonderful local wine bar and it was really great. Everyone was agog at how much weight I'd lost and told me so many times that I looked better than I've looked in years. It was great. My kids made me so proud, performing and speaking in front of a crowd and looking adorable. I saw M's family and also 4 friends from Chicago who I have not spoken to in 2 years. It was all fine.
All this time I felt I had "lost" these people but I realized after seeing them, they are not a loss--they are not good friends, they are not my family and I don't miss them. I still love my MIL and we have stayed in touch but I don't care about the rest of them, they mean nothing to me.
I was totally friendly and happy and felt and acted as though life is good. The Chicago friends asked me what I was doing these days so I got to tell them about the knitting and how well thats going for me.
All I can say is that it was great to have a moment to shine--to give those people who abandoned me in my time of need a chance to walk away with their jaws dropped and their heads shaking in disbelief--I think they expected a very different woman than the one they saw. The best revenge is a life well lived (and looking hot doesn't hurt).
Tomorrow I have my divorce mediation. I'm not feeling nervous--I feel strong and resolved. I'm willing to walk away without getting it resolved if I don't get what I want. I'll update you all when I know more.
First things first, Liss and I should have gotten you on a THREE-WAY last night, during the Marie Debacle! What the hell was she thinking?
Whateva, Hot Helio was FAB, shaking that cute Brazilian ass of his!
We should have planned a FINALE PARTY for tonight...
OK, now for your post, Dahling, I have no doubt that you were the scene stealer this weekend, and yes, those Henny Pennies all went away cackling. I'm sure there was plenty of "Mitch" and "idiot" in the same sentence.
It is a wonderful feeling, is it not, to be around people like that, and it be so obvious that you have it going on. There's a reason you feel that way, because it's true. Don't ever lose sight of that for a minute, especially in mediation tomorrow.
After it's over, we want to hear all the reports about how Mitch is so small, YOU can't even knit a cozy small enough for his wee-ner....
Oh BBA, Marie done gone around the bend girl! Eww, that doll thing and the dance--it was awful. And then she was obnoxious and weird too. She's gotta go!
I'm gonna miss tonight though because I have to shuttle the kids all over the place. I'll catch up with it after though I'm sure. I'm rooting for Mel--she's a hot tamale!
I am so happy for your moment! Of course your kids were wonderful, of course you looked gorgeous, of course you are swimming in success of every kind.
And, you didn't "act" like life was good.....life IS good, and only because of the wonderful, thoughtful, meaningful actions you fill your life with and the integrity you choose to lead it...for you and your kids. It's no small chance that your life is this way now. So, take time to be very proud of yourself. Your new career, your home, your healthy and successful kids. That is all thanks to YOU - each day of hard work even when you felt awful inside, when you melted down, when you were tired.
Good luck tomorrow. All my wishes for nothing but fair to you and the kids. And, good thinking - walk away if it's not what you want. Don't let anything override your desire to stand for what is right for you and the kids.
