RJ, I pulled something out of the SSM dungeon that you had posted to me a while back....
I think you're on to something here with the teasing and unpredictability...you are having healthy drama in your marriage! As I have said before, I have learned that too much safety and routine decrease my desire. I used to feel bad about this, that my body doesn't react to love and commitment, but I was wrong...there is a way to spice things up with the one you love, and you and yourW are doing it! I'm not doing too bad myself...H and I were getting back to the " routine", so in the middle of ML, I just grabbed his head hard and put his mouth on my nipple. I'm not one to show bouts of aggression, so I took a chance, and OMG he was so turned on! Must be something in the air...
Healthy drama.....Question: think back to this love making session you described above...are you there yet? Ok, how did you feel when as you put it "getting back to the routine" (which you said decreases your desire) and then compare that feeling to how YOU felt AFTER you grabbed your husband's head and put his mouth on your nipple? You said how your husband felt and belieeeeve me I KNOW how he felt..BTDT. Just curious to know how RJ felt. How did your desire change, if at all, from the time of "getting back to the routine" and "grabbing your boy's head and putting it where YOU want it?" {sorry, another IC edit from your exact quote }
And recently you posted...
am not sure why I allowed old stuff to get the best of me in the beginning of the trip. I thought I was beyond that, but apparently not. Hard to ditch fear, anger, hurt. I was really trying to push him away, or maybe create some drama...
I know all about the "old stuff" and trying to ditch the past...struggling with that myself but....what kind of drama where you trying to create here? Healthy drama???? How would your vacation, your desire, or the drama... how would they have changed if...even though maybe you weren't feeling it...if before you boarded your plane, you whispered into your husbands ear.."Guess what honey? I'm not wearing any panties," gave him a little wink and then seductively sauntered down the boarding gate to your plane? Healthy drama ???? {maybe a little painful for him sitting in those airplane seats You didn't do the elevator thing, but always a chance to join the mile high club.....trip to Israel soon huh? }
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