I totally understand you. It's the hardest thing I've ever done in my whole life too. I don't know if you are already doing this but read the posts of the great people in this forum. When I started to do it, I was empowered to control my anger on what was possible because of their examples. After some reading I started to calm down because I could change my mode from messed up to strategic thinking. That's why this is so great, it's been two months I am posting now and this is what helps me go through my bad days.
