"Love-hate thing". That's me. Actually, I'm starting to feel hate more consistently. I realize that I love the man I thought he was, the relationship I thought I had. As I uncover more and more, I realize that my perception was always off. I was looking through rose colored glasses. He tried to be a good man, for a while, but he is now what he was before I knew him. I realize now that he did the same thing he's doing to me with his last girlfriend. I was the OW. He told me he was broken up with her, just sleeping on her couch, that she was controlling and blah blah blah. I believed him then. Now I see he's just completing his cycle. Only he married me and had kids with me. I guess I thought that required some kind of commitment. Silly me.
Sorry for the highjack, MK. I just wanted to say I know how you feel. People may scold my STBX, but he has plenty of people supporting him too. To them, I am the monster, somehow. It's probably my fault he doesn't see his kids too. Whatever.
He tells me I can't prove anything-the A, that he was living with her, etc. I don't need to prove anything. I know the truth. He knows the truth. I didn't break up our family. I didn't abandon our children. I didn't choose to pursue my interests instead of being a parent. The only thing I am guilty of is seeking truth; trying to hold my family and our lives together. Yes, I got angry at being lied to, cheated on, abused and manipulated. I didn't hurt anyone. I can sleep at night, and I have my beautiful children to wake up to.
Again, sorry to hj, MK. You deserve the best, MK. Forget bachelor #2. New fish are coming.
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Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9
