Contrary to Cemar's opinion when a person is depressed they do need positive physical activity ( some modest exercise), positive social activity (church counts) and yes, maybe even some work that makes them feel that they are contributing. I understand that the church jobs are coming to a close but I do encourage you to find some positive activities to engage in. These things don't sap your strength. They increase it.
Sandi - hang in there. The holidays can be difficult for people. It is just a very busy, demanding time and few of us celebrate the "perfect" hallmark holiday in this day and age. I am more and more grateful for the beautiful holidays that my Mom always put together for our family.
Concentrate on being YOU. Not on being perfect but on being you. Maybe get yourself a lovely journal and some great gel pens and keep a gratitude journal. Add a few happy newspaper/magazine clippings or other scraps like that and imagine what you might want to strive for in your life. Look for themes to emerge. I know you have no energy right now but these kinds of things are where your energy will come from. And..........
Get a therapist if you don't have one. Get a GOOD one! (many are not).
