Horrible, HOPEFUL Vulnerability

[the girl]

Hi all,
Mixed results with the health club idea. Good: the area has been demystified and I no longer dread driving past. Bad: When I am there I almost obsessively dwell on the OW.

I think I have come to the conclusion that I will not have real closure with her until I can meet with her face to face. I already asked her to meet with me several months ago, and she said she would when she was ready (poor thing must have such a sensitive heart), but has ignored me. Which has infuriated me further. There is nothing more humiliating than being ignored and treated like a non person.

I am tempted to look her up and confront her. BUT I am stopped by the thought of my actions reopening a door for her and my H.

Still working on it.
The Girl