Another tough day with lots of negative thoughts. H seems to be very busy at work and is not calling me much. We seem to be going back to talking about business again, as opposed to saying "I miss you, you miss me" type of talk. We both are not very romantic people so most of our conversation was about kids, what you did during the day, etc. Which is normal but now I am reading too much into it again (like we are talking like business associates or just normal friends).
Had dinner with H's sisters. I suspect one of H's sister knows about the A since she is very close to my MIL and my MIL knows about the A. My SIL has been extra nice to me, helping me to take care of the kids whenever I need to go out. Really going the extra mile for me. Another SIL (who definitely does not know) said it's amazing that I got skinnier and prettier years after getting married. Other women she knows all got more plump. I said may be because they are happy :-) The SIL whom I suspect knows about A did not comment on my comment at all. The "did not know" SIL complained that her H talks too much. I said, well, at least you know what he is feeling. Both SIL then said my H is always very closed, nothing said other than "I am fine." We all agreed that something in the middle would be nice, ha ha.
I will be visiting H in a few days at the town where he works. Hopefully my negative feeling will pass and we can have a good time. Now I'd better get off this computer and go study :-)
