Had the most terrible day today. Opened my h's cell phone bill. There it was again. very little of my number and over 1000 text messages to his ow. So I decided to confront him on this but not in a confrontational manner. sounds strange I know.I brought it up in counselling and said that I had to get it of my chest that I knew about his relationship but not in an attacking manner and with no tears. I just went through what it felt like to see the bill and to let him know that I knew. Told him hardest part is that he replaced me before he worked out the door and that he sent messages while i was asking him for help with our baby and while he lay next to me in bed. He looked incredibly shocked and guilty. He said he had finally found a really good friend and he did not want to tell me cos i would stop his friendship.
Now in all honesty one does not leave ones wife for a "best" friend or send 40-50 text messages to someone you work with all day. After c he told me he despised me and i did not reply.
Now after reading many posts i wonder why i put myself through the waiting and the game. He told me again that he does not love me but cares for me as I am the mother of his child.... Most of the posts describe that people get back together only to separate a couple of months or years later. Why must I endure this twice and why should my daughter??? I know someone might say because it could work out but once someone has cheated whether it be EA or physical and they have chosen to leave for that person how can true trust ever be regained?
Every day I feel differently and I loved him to bits, I still cannot believe he has done this as I always thought we would be together forever and never to part!
