WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

W finally called me just now. We talked for about 10 minutes, just about her new job, what we did this weekend, what we're thinking of doing this week. It seemed fine, not strained or anything, just friendly conversation...nothing even remotely approaching R talk.

I mentioned I'm taking the dog for a hike this weekend, this is something W really likes to do so I had a slim hope she would have interest in tagging along, but there was none. Too bad, but I will enjoy it regardless.

I didn't ask her about the 20 hours of phone calls in 2 weeks, obviously that would have done me no good. I'm actually doing pretty well in knowing that I can't concern myself with that.

At the end she said she'd check in with me next week, but then she said maybe later in the week...so I guess maybe we're on a weekly contact basis now...seems hard to show her much with 10 minutes of contact a week, but I guess it's something.

Other than that, went to the C today. She seems to think I'm making good progress with what I want to do, opening myself up more, expressing my feelings and all that. I know this is good for me regardless of whether W comes back, but I just wish she could see it. It's hard to show that in a short phone convo, especially when you can't venture into R talk territory.