Still trying - Not very well

[limbo]

Thanks Sara,

He has said eh will see our family Dr aswell as his therapist.

To be honest I just feel so drained, I just feel so heartbroken, because I just don't think I have it in me to do this again. I sit here and wonder if he is going to be home, wonder what he is doing, it just so hard.
I asked him today if he thinks he would be happier away from me, he said no...but will I be happier together?
I just want a normal marriage, relationship, no more suprises, no more of my life being thrown into a tailspin!
Does this make me a really selfish person?