FLTC is in a situation similar to Tom Hanks in Saving Private Ryan where he is shooting at the German tank with a 1912 model 45. An excellent hand held weapon I might add.
He is fighting two fronts and feels he is loosing the one at home. Right now the one he is physically in is more important due to the environment. Getting mentally eaten alive due to past failures will distract from his current mission. He should Deal with that later.
Honestly FLTC I would at this time support the kids as best you can spare and put anything toward the wife on hold. It's easier said than done. You probably are already doing it and using this venu to vent. We hear you bro. You are doing fine keep it up.
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin
