This is normal for a MLCer. It is hard to "hold steady" and "stay the course." I have been where you are, to some degree, and can vouch on the difficulty.
Like you, I have retained documentation, if I should ever need it as well.(primarily to protect child more than me-financially)
We do what we need to do, in order to help ourselves. The fine line is making sure what we do is not also self destructive to us, or our R/M.
Keep your feet on the path, by taking it one day at a time....
It CAN be done.
MariS
"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"
Become the change you want to see.....
Me - 37 WAH - 35 child - 2yrs Separated - August '06 Married - 10yrs, Together 18 Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08
