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[mrarow]

Have lost my Wifes love and affection, Lost our 2 best Friends and my Dog in the last few months! Went into major depresion and did a ton of stupid things tring to make sence of it all. Well I have been Married almost 13 years to the Woman of my dreams..... So i thought? We have 3 Girls 1 hers, 1 mine and 1 ours. I had the bomb dropped a few months ago that She was not only not in love with me anymore but she was in Love with my x-Best friend of 20+ years. His wife was her best friend! OMG!! The details are very sad and disterbing how all this happened to write on here. I do not belive they have stopped comunicating as she maintains she wants to be his friend! Would love some support at this time! I am in councling, taking meds for depresion and am being much more positive but what a rollercoaster ride! I feel sick and want this nightmare to end!! I have made huge changes to myself and am working on me now. My relationship with my girls and her has been improving but lots of ups and downs.
Tring hard to give her space as that is what she wants at this time. We are still sleeping in same bed and are not fighting about these issues anymore for the most part. Have been getting good advice from councler and My wife is planing to go so that we can remain friends whatever the outcome. I hope and wish for the oppertunity to make up for many years of being complacent in all aspects of my marriage and famaliy for many years. Its been a few months of hell but i am seeing a few baby steps in the right direction. Tring to be possitive and happy as i relize that is much more attractive to her. I do not talk much about the past and continue to show thru my actions my sencerity to want to make a better marriage from all of this. I love her so Much!! Its so hard to not recive affection and love from her anymore! I am so scared that my past mistakes my never be forgiven? I just want a chance to save our marriage and have a 2 parent famialy. I will do anything and feel so desperate. I have so much more I want to say but can't at this time. The Divorce remedy book has been helpful but she wont read it at all. She is a fence sitter, and I so much want her back on my side of it! What to do next?
M 13 years
Me: 41 y
H : 37 y

Bomb: Summer/07