Get Me On A Smoother Ride....Need Advice #7

[SueS]

Good morning-

Well, here I am, back to reality. I tried to push reality off as long as possible, but it just didn't work!!

We had a nice time with my family. Friday was a full day of shopping. I didn't spend much, but my mom did. She was great. She bought my present early and bought me a lot of new clothes. Friday evening I went to a wedding dance with some relatives. It was fun, as I saw a friend that lives in CA and I hadn't seen him/his wife for about 10 years. Just couldn't stop thinking of H though. We didn't talk at all on Friday. Talked for a little while on Sat. while H was at work. It was an okay convo. H called us Sun. on our way home. He said he was going to play cards with some guys from work. He'd told me earlier in the week that they were thinking about playing. He told me to drive safe and he'd talk to us later. H got home around 12:30 am. I was hurt for D3, as she kept asking where daddy was. How could you ever explain to a 3 year old that daddy finds it more important to be with his friends and/or OW than with us. You know, I did get mad last night. I woke up at midnight and H wasn't home. I called him. His phone went right to VM. Didn't know what I was going to say, but at that moment, I felt that I wanted him to know....you're not home yet and I want to know where you are!

Got ready for work this morning and left. H & D3 were still asleep. H called because D3 is coughing and said her ear is itchy. He was quiet otherwise.

I have to get up the energy to get Christmas stuff up. That means a trip to storage for our tree and decorations. D3 wants a tree and I want her to have a good Christmas.

Things that happened this weekend..........
-My mom told me to keep pluggin' along. To keep working on me. That no matter what happens, I'll be okay. She knows I'm a good mom and I'll do my best to make sure D3 is okay.

-My 19-year old niece apparently commented that she was disappointed in my H because he never comes out to visit with me anymore. She feels like I might as well be a single mom because it seems like my H doesn't do much for us anymore. He does do some things, but from her perspective, she doesn't see it.

-H drank A LOT this weekend from what I could see. Not unlike him unfortuntely. He'd really slowed down, but it's picked up lately. No signs that anyone else was there with him.

Well, I really should get back to work. I'll check in later.

Have a great day!

SueS