Thanks Snodderly: H is an emotional wreck. He was by yesterday and as he sat on the couch or helped me in the kitchen...he just sobbed. He tried to hold back as much he could, as d12 and her friend were fluttering around, but it was hard for him.
At several points during his time at the house he turned to me and said he was sorry. He said he was sorry he was so screwed up. He didn't know how to fix it and doesn't know what is wrong with him.
We watched a movie and d12 and her friend wanted the couch. H signaled for me to move next to him on the love seat. He held my hand for quite a while.
He left around 9. A mess. Around 11 he called me to say he was sorry again. I was half asleep. He said he was driving around. Can't remember much of the conversation, but he did say he would see us today.
So, we shall see. Expectations are at 0. Hopefully counseling will help. We shall see. I am just hoping this is not just the emotions of the holiday season. I guess time will tell.
