I am trying to move forward and take care of me and my children. My H is still in the house. We can't afford to get him an apartment for himself. His sister said she could stay with her but H says he is trying to make life as normal as possible for the kids. It hurts to see him every day but would it hurt worse if he was gone? His bags are packed and it's always a touch and go sitch. I am doing the walking on eggshells. I'm just acting "as if" right now and acting like nothing is wrong. Very difficult cause I want to be intimate with him and he wants nothing to do with me, probably because he is with her. I guess I'm in the "limbo" stage. Hate it, hate it. I want him to wake up. I have been dealing with this for a little over a year if I figured it right. I had to go back and figure out where the trigger was and I think I did. It was back when we had 5 surgeries in one year. Very hard and they were big surgeries. He had a bicep surgery and it didn't take, after 8 weeks of therapy they had to redo it. That sent him over the edge. I think he was a little depressed about that. Then he slept with the OW, and all down hill from there. I thought we were to look to each other for help, not run from them.
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
