Lin -

question - can our families push them further away? for real? i worry - i read what my h wrote to my dad. it was of course partial truth. i have unbelievable guilt about the way I held my father up so high that there was no way myh could live up to him. no way. it was wrong - so very very wrong.

so here i am- feeling further away from him then ever. at least the day of my birthday he sent me an email and acknowledge it, our anniversary i acknowledged - and he did the next day ( i had asked him not to email back) my birthday was late september, our anniversary in june.

now...a holiday has passed and he doesn't acknowledge me...i listen and read and hear you. yes my love is the real deal and eyss it is worth it. can't believe how badly i miss someone who has left me.

question - you brought up a really good point. his pride wont let him run back home - will it keep him from me all together? i know you probably get so tired of this - just you have had success adn i crave to have it too.


M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06
Moved out 3/12/07
D final 7/30/2008
finding myself again