Still stuck in Limbo Land

[MariS]

Journaling:

Thanksgiving was better than last year, at least.

WAH-MLCer actually came home Wed. evening early from the HH that I was so concerned about. He even brought take out for us. Still doesn't negate the fact that I believe friend/OW was there.

Thanksgiving, he actually spent the morning w/child and I, we had a family meal and then WAH-MLCer left for the deer lease. (supposedly)

After being burned soooo many times, I have a hard time believing him and that is my issue/problem.

A few txt messages and a well placed call here and there...ugh, I hate being the stable sane one. When is it my turn, or at least when will the time come for me to have a choice for it to be my turn or not?

There is also an indication on a friend of a friend's myspace that WAH-MLCer and friend/OW are still involved. There was a bulletin about GFs and questions pertaining to your top 8 GFs. The way this friend of a friend answered one of those questions, was that the friend/OW would do anything for her, unless my WAH-MLCer happened to call with last minute plans.

Funny how the friend of the friend let this bulletin remain posted just long enough for me to see and then retracted it. Unfortunately, I didn't have the where with all to print the page or copy, paste and save it.

Damn my WAH-MLCer and his MLC - wish I could give him a swift kick in the A## to shove him out of this tunnel.

Today, WAH-MLCer is indicating that he will either be returning late this evening or early in the morning from deer lease. My reply was it would be nice if he returned this evening so he could take child to school in the morning. That I have been w/child for four days, not being able to work on new business and I could use a break. BUT, if he felt that he still needed to be gone, fine, I would still be the one staying behind taking care of everything. However I will require his help by picking child up from school tomorrow.

I don't think I wouldn't mind some much of WAH-MLCer pulling this stuff, if actually would help me out more financially. Here I am working two jobs, juggling child, our issues and started a business. WAH-MLCer was basically born w/a silver spoon in his mouth and doesn't REALLY work. Why would any spouse with that freedom not be willing to share it with their partner?

This has been going on since we married, but is now a REAL issue since child came into the picture.

Thanks for letting me vent....

Child is down for nap and I should go and clean up the house. We did have fun decorating for X-Mas. I even asked child if child wanted Daddy to come home and child said no. Amazing what WAH-MLCer is passing up on. We can not go down this path again w/child, child only grows up once......