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[Trixi]

How are you doing 99? Been away from here for a bit. What's new in your sitch?

Heya Max!
I was wondering how you were doing! (I hope you have updated your thread because once I am done here, I'm going to look to see if you have! (I looked a couple days ago and was surprised at how long it's been since you've been on.))

I wish I could say that I am doing great, but really I am sad, lonely and scared. This too shall pass, I guess.

Dom R,
I found the following regarding ACoA and it fits me to a "T". This is why I don't even really know what "good wife" would do. I don't know what a person with true self-esteem would do.

Well, here's the list:
Here are Janet Woititz's Characteristics, published in her book Adult Children of Alcoholics.
1. Adult children of alcoholics guess at what normal behavior is.
2. Adult children of alcoholics have difficulty following a project through from beginning to end.
3. Adult children of alcoholics lie when it would be just as easy to tell the truth.
4. Adult children of alcoholics judge themselves without mercy.
5. Adult children of alcoholics have difficulty having fun.
6. Adult children of alcoholics take themselves very seriously.
7. Adult children of alcoholics have difficulty with intimate relationships.
8. Adult children of alcoholics overreact to changes over which they have no control.
9. Adult children of alcoholics constantly seek approval and affirmation.
10. Adult children of alcoholics usually feel that they are different from other people.
11. Adult children of alcoholics are super responsible or super irresponsible.
12. Adult children of alcoholics are extremely loyal, even in the face of evidence that the loyalty is undeserved.
13. Adult children of alcoholics are impulsive. They tend to lock themselves into a course of action without giving serious consideration to alternative behaviors or possible consequences. This impulsively leads to confusion, self-loathing and loss of control over their environment. In addition, they spend an excessive amount of energy cleaning up the mess.

Only 3 and 13 don't seem to apply to me- with the exception that I will 'lie' to spare someone's feelings. Otherwise, I am almost honest to a fault.

You are right that I am not ready to say Goodbye to him.

I have researched CoDA and ACoA meetings in my area and plan to attend.

Yeah, I agree that SELF worth should be coming from my self... Looks like my work is cut out for me.