I understand your frustration and how your heart breaks for your kids. Change can be very hard, but it is a part of life.
I know you are frustrated about your exchange/reaction w/ W yesterday. We all have our bad tendencies that we tend to fall back on from time to time. We are all humans and all imperfect beings. But don't let that give you an excuse for giving up working on yourself or not trying to have an R with someone. You have a lot of knowledge about how things are supposed to be and how you can make things better for you and those around you. Don't just sit on that knowledge though, use it. Are you going to be a perfect person all of the time? Nope. None of us will, but we still need to put forth the effort as best as we can.
I don't mean to be beating you up about this, but I feel like you are saying, "That's just the way I am, oh well." I think it would be a huge shame for you and the people in your life if that were the case.
Take care, C!
Oh and, uh, there seem to be no Christmas lights on my house yet. What's the deal?
