Wife walked in my bedroom this morning as I was surfing the web on my laptop. "I need to know where you are" is how it started. And it didn't get any better... We talked for about two hours. I told her I was indifferent to being either married or divorced. She said, "let's just end it and move on." I told her I didn't want to hurt the kids, etc. We weren't getting anywhere.
She again accused me of having "internet sex," and asked if I was corresponding with her boyfriend's wife. I paused... looked away and said, "no." I left a little doubt as to whether I was telling the truth. Not sure why I wanted to do that... and she asked why I paused before answering. I told her I was pondering reasons as to why she was asking. And as we were talking, my phone buzzed. She said, "there's a text from your girlfriend." Of course, I knew otherwise, and showed the text was from a work-related website, alerting me that it had been updated. Also, showed her other texts I got from airline, notifying me of upgrades, etc. Yeah, she sure busted me.... Nice job Barney Fife...
And the most hurtful (helpful, actually) thing she said was, "In hindsight, I would definitely do it over again (the affair). I learned so much about myself." Thanks for that, sweetheart. Make it easy for me.....
This clearly tells me that she hasn't changed a bit. I am indeed too good for her. She is a lying, cheating person who hides from or runs from her problems. There is no room in my life for somebody like that... and especially somebody who says so as if it were nothing at all. Oh, and in response I said, "so in the future when things aren't going well, you just go have an affair??" Oh, no no ..... of course not.
I did come out and tell her that I am 50/50. I do believe that with work, we can fix the marriage. She said she has gone 'over the cliff' and cannot come back. OK.... But I did tell her that I am indifferent. I told her I don't care any more.
