Mopsey, I'm glad the holiday has been a pleasant for you and your children. It sounds like you were able to relax just a little bit. You and the children should plan to do something special tomorrow since you are off.
Today sounds like fun and I'm sure you will enjoy having the children in and enjoying the football games. Isn't it nice to know that your children, despite it all, still want their friends to come over? That says a lot about you and your home. Your children love you and know that their home is a safe and loving place to be and bring their friends. Cherish these things so that they can be brought out to remind you of what you have when the dark periods come along.
As for your h, you are far more loving and caring than I would be. He wouldn't be sitting at the foot of my bed at 1:30 in the morning. Mopsey, you've got to set those boundaries so that you can get your rest. He's still over the place emotionally and if you don't get your rest, your immune system will go to heck. He's got to learn that he can't just walk in at any hour of the day. This is now your space and he has to respect you and that space. I know you care about him, but honey, he's got the best of both worlds right now and something's got to change just a little bit to make him feel the pinch of reality.
As for tomorrow, it will be interesting what the therapist has to say to him. You may find him a bit withdrawn if he calls or comes by after this meeting. Don't take it personally, it's something he's not going to be happy doing or hearing about himself.
Enjoy your day!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
