Walk Away Wife - My Sitch

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So I thought that I really blew it tonight. At least I was very confused for a bit. Here's what happened.

My W called me yesterday and said that she needed her winter coat and a few other things from the house. I told her she could either come over, meet up, or I could bring it to her place. We decided to play it by ear and decide later. In the same conversation she told me how she didn't have any money left for the week. Fast forward to today. She called several times while I was hanging out with my dad and brother. I ended up being able to talk to her around 4. She wanted to meet up, but I could tell that she didn't want to drive very far. So, I suggested that I could pick up dinner from her favorite restaurant and bring it up to her place. She agreed to that and I thought everything was fine. I told her that I wouldn't stay long, but it would be nice to see her.

When I got to her place, we both were really hungry so we dug right in. Afterwards we talked a little in her kitchen and then I could tell that she wanted me to leave. I went to put my coat on and she said that I didn't have to leave right then, but I said that I could tell that she wanted me to. (Stupid me.) We didn't get into an argument, but I let my feelings show. I thought that I would get to stick around a bit longer and the fact that she was shuffling me out the door made me upset. She said that she doesn't know what to do with me and that we'd seen each other too much recently. A few more things were said that I can't remember, but I do know that I wanted to leave really bad before I really lost it. I said goodbye and tried to leave, but she stopped me and gave me a hug and a kiss and asked me what I was doing for the rest of the night.

Once I got in my car, I decided that I wanted to drive for a bit, so I took the back way home. By back way, I mean out in the boonies where I can't get a cell phone signal. It took me probably a half hour to get back to civilization and in that time she had called me five times and left a message. She explained to me that she didn't feel comfortable yet just sitting around with me. She said that she would have been alright if we were doing something. I told her that I could understand that and that there were no hard feelings. She then suggested that we could get together later in the week and play guitars or something. I told her that I would like that. She said that she had learned a new song that she wanted me to hear.

So, while initially I thought that tonight was a disaster, I think that I came out of it pretty well. At least I know that I'll be able to sleep tonight. As always, insight is more than welcome.
Peace,
B